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The beginning of our long song.

This piece is called the onion song. It is a reflection on love and the peeling of layers. I will peel my layers for you. For this is the beginning of our love story and with truth comes the fear of how it will end.

This piece is called the onion song. It is a reflection on love and the peeling of layers. I will peel my layers for you. For this is the beginning of our love story and with truth comes the fear of how it will end.

My heart is breaking from the inside.

 I am a heartbreak that lives in bloom, stretching to reveal the corners of a bleeding wound. I know I will be kissing you soon. You kiss me from the inside.  Your lips keep me away from my disguise; your soul swims next to mine, but eludes me in time.

How can I be close to you?

Help me choose, the right path.

I never want to hurt you.

I never want to hurt you.

I never want to hurt you.

I never want to hurt you.

How strange. A concept that I could explain but I could not express it in the same way. I hurt myself.

How can I live with myself?

How can you live with me?

I hurt you.

I never want to hurt you.

I want you here.

Be with me.

I wonder what my smile looks like to you; does it promise you sweetness and truth? Does it make you trust me? Trust me. I want you, to see, the curse you placed on me, saved me.

My ground was harsh, dry from the inside.  I become soluble to your touch, moving into a heated rush, gently becoming love, once again. You were not only my friend; you were a lover till the very end.  A blowing wind that cleared me into open fields becoming mounds, to become hills, to become mountains, to become clouds; you made me see how I would speak aloud. You made me see, that life was beauty. I could not catch you.  You could have played with me endlessly. I wanted to catch you. I swam into chaos trying to follow you.

Purity is for the dead but you made me feel clean.  You saved me.

I hurt you.  I still I don’t understand why. I was full of lies, even when I looked into your eyes. I had hid for so long, you were a piper and I followed your song, I followed your smell but still I was a rat wondering through streets filled with filth.

I no longer have the honour of your eyes, you no longer; see me smile, my many smiles, driving you wild.  You became a ghost.  I am alone.

I will be honest next time. Tell no lies.

I will make sure I get another chance. 

Are the gods so kind? I wont let you go. I wont let you go.  Haunt me all the way home. I wont let you go.

Humans are change, contradictions in every way. I contradicted what I knew would keep me sane, your smile every morning, making me play, what a fool I was not to see, all you needed was me and all I needed was you. I wish I could have told the truth, I love you, through and through.  

One day I hope to see you.

Photography by Daniela Florez

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